moving forward; Enrty Num 3.

As the weekend came to an end i wondered if I made the right choice in just letting it all go and not looking back. It isn't the easiest thing in the world to do but if i don't do it I'll never get past anything, I'll never experience the joys of the world. Remaining in a relationship by myself or making myself believe that there is one when the other is evidently past it and moved on just seems hopeless and ridiculous. That night I was mad, mad at him and mainly mad at her... i felt disrespected and I just couldn't allow myself to take that situation in calm.. i had to take it storm. But i commend myself on not going up to him and giving him the third degree about who, what , when, where and why. I confided in my friends. Yes that night I wanted to cry but every emotion in my body told me it was for all the wrong reasons and so the next night i smiled, i laughed and had fun the whole night through. I said my hellos to him and asked why out of all the girls in the room hadn't i gotten the chance to dance, but after getting the shrug and close to nothing of an explanation I simply walked away with a smile on my face and closure in my mind. Never thought the day would come when I'd let it go. I've said it all too many times, but her anger and disgust was all it took for me to see that my smile was worth more than the frown he placed. Today I live proof of getting past the past and moving forward. You may think this is just another talk without the walk but its more than that ... trust you'll see