revisions of the past

time after time i find myself looking for an escape, a path away from the storm, a stream to flow me along... a sign that was seems like a disaster is much more of a positive experience than the mind thinks...

Strength ..

This is for the woman who doesn't understand her worth

Struggles with self acceptance and disapproval's from others

screams at the top of her lungs but none bothers...

to answer her, let alone ask her whats wrong

they don't know her story, they fail to listen to her song

the one her hearts sings as it continues to slowly dispose



This is for the woman who doesn't know her own strength

insomnia her best friend as she struggles to fall asleep, through tears and pain

takes the punches, the kicks .. waits for the sunshine but all she gets is rain





I tried to write a poem for a woman who fails to see the greatness in her existence while others repeatedly stomp on her best qualities. Instilling in her failure and a broken mirror, where her image remains distorted. I tried to write a poem for a women who fails to realize her existence, who allows others to define what happiness is for her, who allow men to define whats good in her and whats bad to fit their expectations, a woman who can't enjoy a simple day without the hassle and drama , cries herself to sleep many nights hoping that the next one will be better only to wake to the same bullshit time after time. i tried to write a poem for a woman who fails to realize that GOD is the only one who can judge her. i tried to write a poem for a woman who lost all her hope yet has the greatest faith of all , only not in herself but in GOD. fails to see the reality and entraps herself in fantasies. i tried to write a poem for a boy, a boy who fell in love deep and couldn't get out. gave and gave and gave and yet nothing came back. i tried to write a poem for a man who got a second chance at love but let it go because he was to scared it could be real. feared the thought of actually having a woman who loved him for him, who would listen to his every need and do things just because, he didn't have to ask. i tried to write a poem for a woman who has the strength for everyone she loves but cant find it in herself. can give the best advice to help everyone but fails to help herself. i tried to write a poem for a woman who lost everything. i tried ... i tried to write .. i tried to write a poem for a woman who put all her faith in a relationship she believed would never come , a love she thought would never happen. i tried to write a poem for a woman who's been a victim all her life. i tried to write a poem for a woman who no one understands and never will .. to know her is to know her struggle, her life, her past .. too delicate a subject , to harsh a reality she can't tell it , too ignorant they won't ask . i tried to write a poem about a woman ..

i tried... i tried to write a poem .. i tried to write a poem about a woman ..

i tried.. i tried to write ..

tell me, did i succeed?